To go or not to go..That is the question..

Let's put aside the whole business about uploading pictures. I know some of you are waiting for me to upload pictures *coughMeiLincough*, but I have to put that aside first. I have a crisis on my hand. Not really a crisis but it's a decision I rather not make.
Should I go and abandon the yearly traditions that my family and I have been doing since I was born OR should I stay and celebrate it without my parents, just my eldest brother, youngest sister and my extended family?
If I do decide to stay, it will only be just the three of us. This year's celebration will be without A.Id, Kak Ida, Mak and Ayah. Now, how sad is that right?
What will happen to the so-call Blue theme that we planned since last year? How will Raya be this year?
Can somebody please pull me out of my misery..

-me